The Start of The Rest of My Life

Well hello Blog!
Yes I know it has been a while… I am very sorry. I have been caught up in my senior year, and this is what the post is about.

It is Wednesday, May 28, 2014 10:12 PM. It is also my last day as a High School Student. Tomorrow at 7 I graduate from High School. Now I have never been emotional, but I can't help to think that this is then end of a very long chapter of my life. Some people are not able to say this, but I have had the best you can ask for High School Experience. I would not change a thing. I made the grades, got into the college of my dreams, I won some scholarships, I am receiving a Honors Diploma, and I have made some amazing friends. Life has been great, sure I had some rough spots, but with out them the good ones would not have been so sweet. After tomorrow I have exactly 85 days before I leave for college. So in honor of my 85 days of summer, I will be posting something each day to help document my transition from a high school senior to college freshman.

So thank you for following me along this journey,

Bailey xx

If Things Don't Go Your Way

Hello There,

So I received some bad news today that I didn't make the finalists for a big scholarship I was applying to. It was from our state business program and I had a very good shot. I have two other friends that we tend to be constantly competing against each other and they both made it. Yes, I am quite disappointed that I didn't make it, because I would be much better if I could interview for it, but never the less life goes on. I know I will be happy for my friends as they deserve it. I am sure you all have had times where things don't go your way so here are a few things I do.

1. Look on the bright side. Don't dwell on the fact it didn't work out, look for the next opportunity that you can make it go right.
2. Don't be jealous. Yes my friends got it, but they deserve it too. They have much better test scores and a higher GPA, and they worked for it. 
3. Take a small bit of time for your self to be sad. This may contradict the first statement, but I mean don't just sit around going woe is me, but don't keep it bottled up. Talk to someone you trust, or write about it (Like I am blogging now) feeling sad is normal, but don't dwell too much. 

That is about all I have and if you have any other questions let me know. 

Hope your day goes well,

Bailey xx

So Here is the Thing About Me...

Hello there!
As college comes full steam ahead, I am having to spend sometime trying to get a focus of what I would like to study. Let me tell you, this is the hardest decision I have ever had to make. Now when ever I speak to someone they ask "Well, what did you want to be when you were young?" My answer is everything… I wanted to be a vet, to a librarian, to working at Kroger's. So then the next question is "Well, what do you like to do?"I usually reply with I'm not quite sure or I like to do a lot, because it would take days. I like to do a lot of different things and I feel free to agree if you like to do the same

I like to work with horses, I like to teach, I like to make a difference, I absolutely love to travel, I love to write, I like to blog, I like photography, I like creating films, I like the editing process, I like script writing, I like producing, I love music, I like designing outfits, I like doing make up, I like doing hair, I like to plan events, I love to work backstage, I like designing sets, I love to be in the spotlight, I love new adventures, I love to meet new people, I like office work, I like to build things, I love innovative ideas, I like technology, I enjoy working hard, I love having a purpose, I like research, I like understanding, I like to talk, I love to motivate others, I love to study others and their habits, I love to help others, and most of all I love to experience the world and everything in it. Now if you can find a major or job that incorporates these into them please let me know!

Now that I have written that maybe it will help me focus on what I like the most. I maybe adding more to this list, but for now this is it. I will be sure to tell you what I decide whenever I do. Now I am going to go and finish listening to the Red album for the third time today.

Have an awesome day!

Love,

Bailey xx 

Stress

Hello there!

So I am deep sorry for the lack of posting lately. al the title and the photo above I have been under a lot of stress lately. I have been quite the busy bee and this cold isn't helping here at all. Currently we are having a heat wave here in Ohio at 36 degrees. Never fear... we go back to -13 monday night. Now I am quite use to stress and worrying, because I always seem to do as much as possible. Since before Christmas I have had something going on every weekend. This includes tests, horse shows, competitions, and family events. It has felt as if I haven't had time to breath and I am starting to feel the effect of it. I've just been feeling super tired all the time, I've been getting bad headaches, and my biggest sign is I start to get some zits. Now it is very rare if I get any acne at all (Yes I am lucky because of it, but i pay the price with super dry skin.) because I have very, very dry skin so I never get enough oil on my face to get acne. Yet with all of my stress this past month I have broken out really bad from my jaw to my neck. This was my tell tell sign that I needed a break. So this weekend I am over joyed with the fact everything I had planned was cancelled. I believe it was a sign that I needed to take this weekend off. So this weekend I have watched lots of Netflix and I haven't accomplished anything… And it feels GREAT!!! 

So lets finally get to the point about this post. I am sure you all have been stressed and will be stressed, so here are some tips that work for me that I want to share with you.

1.  Take a break- don't get so caught up that you make yourself sick. Take some time to accomplish nothing. I suggest Supernatural on Netflix or reading this awesome blog called Curly Hair What to Wear :)
2.  Don't be so hard on yourself. If you are unable to accomplish everything in one day then don't worry or get yourself worked up. We will have tomorrow.
3. Listen to some good music. Go back to some old favorites. My staple is always some Ed Sheeran.
4. Spend time with friends. This week I got my two girlfriends together to get some ice cream and watch the new Sherlock episode. 
5. Take a hot bath or shower.
6. Wake up 10 mins early to have time not to rush. 
7. Do something you love todo. I really like crafts and artsy things, so I and making a new poster with a good quote. (Will post about when done)
8. Clean your room. Having a clean work space will help reduce stress.
9. Dress up. I always feel better when I am wearing something that looks put together when I go to school. When you wear something that fits and makes you feel confident will brighten your whole day.
10. Lastly don't sweat the small things. You are only human and we all make mistakes. Don't forget the little things in life.   

And if all else fails look at this cute puppy who likes to lay in the sun.

So I hope you all have an awesome week!

Love,

Bailey xx

Hello There!!

     So this is kind of an odd post, but I just watched Jc Caylen's video on O2L titled "I Hate Myself". It was a very inspiring video and It has inspired this post. I will link the video below.
So I hate myself. Yes I believe everyone has something that they hate about themselves. Watching Jc talk about his insecurities and some relate to my insecurities too.
     I have a lot of things I wish I could change about myself like I have a very round face and a double chin when I smile. I have dry skin, and get red patches called eczema. My hair never stays perfect. I can't sing. I have a extremely short torso, no butt, and football player shoulders and its hard to find clothes that fit. No matter how active I am it is very hard for me to lose weight. I have a bad breathing problem that requires me to be on medication everyday. I have very pale transparent skin, and the worst of all my boobs are two different sizes.
     Whoah! Glad we got that out of the way. Honestly it feels better getting those things off my chest. Now Yes those are things I hate about myself, and I use to struggle with it a lot about how I look and what people think of me. I still do. There are still days where I just don't feel good about my self. But… It happen especially when you get a bit older that you realize you are more than your insecurities. Also most the time everyone else is so worried about their insecurities that they don't see yours. Now on the days where I don't feel the best about myself, or maybe no clothes are fitting quite right, I think about the things that I love about myself.
     I love my ability to speak to people like they are old friends. I love that I am looked up to. I love that I am considered the best listener by my friends. I love that even if I don't have the look they want I am always placed high in horse shows, because I am an actual good rider. I love that I work for things that I want. I love that I have dreams and aspirations. I love that I am able to be busy. I love my blue eys. I also love the color of my hair. I love that I can play a bit of piano. I love that I am an individual. I love that I am blessed with a great family and supportive friends. I love that I can not see someone for years and we talk as if we see each everyday. Most of all I love that I am the one and only version of me.

It has taken me years to learn this. To learn that there is only one of me, and I am the only one who can create my own image. So think about this, there is only one and will only ever be one version of you, and that is you.

Hope this makes you feel better when you are feeling insecure.

Love,

Bailey xx

Who Are You?

Hello There!!

So this will be my first deep post, and I think I will start a series of my deep 3 am thoughts. So as I am sure you have gotten from my past post I tend to stay up quite late. I feel as if it is almost dangerous for me to be left with my own thoughts this late at night. So sit back a relax because we are about to dive in to some of my own deep late at night thoughts.

Who Are You? Describe Yourself? I think these are one of the hardest questions I can answer. Now I am always fairly capable with coming up with some BS answer to keep the person happy and move on. Here is my stereotypical answer:
Well currently I am a senior in High School looking to head to college. Throughout high school I have actively participated in our business program heading numerous projects such as pep rallies and fundraisers. I have held several positions through the local, state, and national level examples being: Historian, Fundraiser Coordinator, Voting delegates, and Campaign Managers. Along with BPA I also hold leadership positions through my 4-H Club and a leadership program. I have competitively ridden horses all my life and hold many awards from local and national competitions. I currently compete on an IEA Team and hope to move on IHSA team in college.

Now doesn't that seem boring? 
I am always a person who wants to know more about people. My favorite word in the English Dictionary is Sonder, "the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own." Do any of you sit and realize you will never know everything about someone. Or seeing strangers on the street and wonder will your lives ever cross again. Maybe I am the only one, but if you haven't ever thought of this I hope it gives you something to think about late at night. 

So who are you? This is how I would really like to answer this question:
Well my name is Bailey I am a responsible 18 year old who loves to dream. I am known by my curly hair.  I like to live with my head in the clouds, because I get tired of the life I am living. I one day will travel the world hopefully make a bunch of new friends along the way. I can't really see a job that I will do the rest of my life, but my requirements are I have to love it. I care very deeply for the welfare of people, yet I do believe people deserve the punishments they bring upon themselves. I love music more then most things, but I am awful at singing. I can play the piano with practice and the only song I can play straight off is Boston by Augustana. I have a special talent in repressing emotions, but most people don't understand why it comes first nature to me to not show certain emotions. I love to talk and go hang out in big crowds, but I can get tired of it if I'm not with the right people. I am more productive at night and tend to stay up very late. If I get stressed you can tell, because I break out and tend to feel sick. I am one of the most loyal people you will ever meet and I will be there for anyone as long as they haven't hurt one of my friends or family members in the past, that is unforgivable.

Why can't this be the answer people are looking for? 

Tell me about your self.

Love,

Bailey xx